Happy Aging

As I said how it feels like getting older !? The precise expression would be wow ,amazing  and shit..! 33 long years have been passed.. erased utterly.

 Aging should be  growing gracefully  equated to just getting older . The fact is you should feel awe once you start  the retrospection,  besides that’s the possible  way you can travel back in time zone.  

 The other day I had a patient , stating his age as 27 . And for that very moment I envied his age, and wished , if I could be 27 again..! And if  I could be granted those 5yrs back;  what would I modify ! ?  hmm; now looking back, yes I would definitely alter few things, first thing my extreme workaholic nature,  I would replace  those days when I had worked without passion , I would travel more , I would worry less especially about people and what they would think, I would love my self more,  so that I can reciprocate it, I would take the instantaneous decisions, without thinking much; I would respect myself to the fullest;  in short I will be the same person as I always used to be, as a child, as a teen ager, as a youngster ,and who is now! The real happy and playful soul. That’s it!

       Strangely I am not at all regretting those years , it’s the beauty of time that teaches you and holds you upright . In-fact I respect the way it went ,carving out of me a persona who was always  the core, it was regaining myself, and for that the cost doesn't really matter.!

Regaining yourself is just like beholding  that old preserved thing may be a box, a toy, a book, a pen, a slice of cloth, dices ,beads ,  the thing which belongs just to us. We relish it for our entire life , physically or in the memory. Merely   glimpse of  it gives you some unexplained pleasure, sense of being yourself, and if it gets misplaced, you will end up going haywire, till you finally recover it and counting  the price you paid in term of time spent in searching it is meaningless..!

 What is it ,which is so marvelous , and magical, it’s that piece  of soul, ever charming! Which we don’t want to miss on.!

Its ok, if it didn't cross me at the age of 27 , I am still happy  about the expedition called life .

I have traveled a lot, without caring about bills or debts to pay, enjoyed exotic vacations , met new folks, creating new bonds  always , I had enjoyed a great friend circle continually with variety of interests and age groups, I had read a lot  ,and I am still having an insatiable hunger for all of these , because that’s what living  and feeling alive is all about..! there is no point in living if you cant feel alive.

   I am feeling this is a grace of God to grant me such a life I had so far  not at all perfect but the way I am, totally   imperfect and in the search of perfection.

 I am calling it happy aging..!