As I said
how it feels like getting older !? The precise expression would be wow ,amazing and shit..! 33 long years have been passed.. erased
utterly.
Aging should be growing gracefully equated to just getting older . The fact is
you should feel awe once you start the retrospection,
besides that’s the possible way you can travel back in time zone.
The other day I had a patient , stating his
age as 27 . And for that very moment I envied his age, and wished , if I could
be 27 again..! And if I could be granted
those 5yrs back; what would I modify ! ? hmm; now looking back, yes I would definitely
alter few things, first thing my extreme workaholic nature, I would replace those days when I had worked without passion ,
I would travel more , I would worry less especially about people and what they
would think, I would love my self more,
so that I can reciprocate it, I would take the instantaneous decisions, without
thinking much; I would respect myself to the fullest; in short I will be the same person as I always
used to be, as a child, as a teen ager, as a youngster ,and who is now! The
real happy and playful soul. That’s it!
Strangely
I am not at all regretting those years , it’s the beauty of time that teaches
you and holds you upright . In-fact I respect the way it went ,carving out of
me a persona who was always the core, it
was regaining myself, and for that the cost doesn't really matter.!
Regaining
yourself is just like beholding that old
preserved thing may be a box, a toy, a book, a pen, a slice of cloth, dices
,beads , the thing which belongs just to
us. We relish it for our entire life , physically or in the memory. Merely glimpse of it gives you some unexplained pleasure, sense
of being yourself, and if it gets misplaced, you will end up going haywire,
till you finally recover it and counting the price you paid in term of time spent in
searching it is meaningless..!
What is it ,which is so marvelous , and
magical, it’s that piece of soul, ever charming!
Which we don’t want to miss on.!
Its
ok, if it didn't cross me at the age of 27 , I am still happy about the expedition called life .
I
have traveled a lot, without caring about bills or debts to pay, enjoyed exotic vacations , met new folks, creating new bonds always , I had enjoyed a great friend circle continually
with variety of interests and age groups, I had read a lot ,and I am still having an insatiable hunger
for all of these , because that’s what living and feeling alive is all about..! there is no
point in living if you cant feel alive.
I am feeling this is a grace of God to grant
me such a life I had so far not at all
perfect but the way I am, totally imperfect and in the search of perfection.
I am calling it happy aging..!
